Tonight as I was sitting in a Christmas Eve church service, I realized just how much I have to be grateful for. I had my husbands family on my left and my family on my right. I was overwhelmed by how special that was. I was literally surrounded by more love and support than I could ever imagine. Lately, I have been ready to get back to my home but this realization completely changed my heart. I became so extremely grateful to be exactly where I was. I could not believe just how much I took for granted. How this was an opportunity others would give anything to experience. It was moment I will not forget and an experience I will cherish for so many years to come.
The service was not your typical Christmas Eve message. It touched on how Jesus was “the reason for the season” but the main message was how God is greater than any and everything we will ever encounter. Greater than fear, doubt, stress, worry, hate and anything else you can put in that blank. He is greater than this separation and deployment. He is greater than my sadness and pain. He is greater.
It was such a beautiful reminder of His greatness and sovereignty. I also was reminded that where He is, so is His peace, joy, rest, comfort and so much more. Those four things hit me especially hard because I really am in need of them all. I was shocked when I realized that I had been relying on my own strength and toughness to get me through this season of separation. I was trying to do it all on my own and making it so much more difficult than it needed to be. I barely am a few weeks in and I am exhausted already. So as I sat there between my families, I gave it all to God. Exactly where it should have been from the beginning.
Tomorrow will undoubtably be a tough day but I am grateful for Gods peace to help us both through. And I have so much to be thankful for. I will not let the one thing that I do not have ruin all that I do have.