As tough as this deployment has been, its been interesting discovering what my “Stages of Deployment” are. First it was shock followed by “how the heck am I going to do this”. Then the “whoo look at me!” followed my the “Oh no, please don’t break” haha. The halfway point brought a lot of encouragement but also made me say “What, what? We’ve been apart how long?!”. Now I am in the “Can you not?!” stage. This stage is different from all the others because all the rest were about me, but this one is about other people. Like to the couple in line in front of me at the grocery store, can you not hold hands and be all lovey dovey?! Can the couple at the gym not stop flirting for a second?! Can the couple on tv not make out?! Can my friend not tell me a detailed account of the super duper cute thing her husband did for her today?!
I’m so over love and PDA right now. It all just feels so obnoxious and in my face which is so dumb, I know it is! I can feel myself being ridiculous but its hard to help. I know where this is stemming from though… I MISS HIM! I miss having his hand to hold and goofing off with him in the store. I miss hearing his keys in the door when he comes home in the evening and I miss the sound of his voice. I miss movie marathons and spontaneous date nights. I miss late night snuggles and forehead kisses. I miss it all! And I am ready to have it back. I am ready to have him back.
As much as it hurts I am grateful to have a love that makes being apart so tough. Someone I’d rather wait for than have anyone else. I am so ready to be under the same roof, in the same time zone and on the same continent as my husband but I know he will be back soon enough and we’ll get our turn to enjoy all those simple joys. Just have to keep on keeping on. And not be envious of those that get to enjoy time with their loved one because it is such a precious thing that should not be taken for granted.