I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …
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10 Day Update
Today makes 10 days since we said our goodbye. (Note: He did not leave for his deployment 10 days ago. I left for home then and thats when we said our final goodbyes but I will not say his exact day due to OPSEC.) The goodbye itself was extremely tough but I am so proud …
Why I’m not moving home during deployment
No, I am not moving back home while he is deployed. Although I am sure both our families would prefer I did. I did consider it. We talked about that possibility a lot and he was supportive of me doing either. Ultimately, I came to the decision that me staying at our new duty station …
Countdown to Goodbye
Today went so well! I talked him into going to the early church service and on the way there I told him why but didn't give all the details. I just told him I had a surprise planned for noon in town. For the next three hours he guessed and asked questions constantly. Everything from helicopter …
When Christmas Has to Come Early
As you know, my husband received orders to deploy sometime before Christmas. As unfortunate as it is, we are making the best of it and decided to celebrate early (and probably again when he gets back 😏 ). I ordered his Christmas gift the first week of November, way before we knew he would be deploying. …
Hurry Up and Wait
So heres where we are. He got green lighted to be deployed last week. Received all his gear. All paperwork is done. All boxes are checked and yet... he's still here??? Apparently he's leave date got pushed back just a little. Its not by much but we'll take it. Its tough because I am of …
Just So Done
I cried tonight for the first time in months. And it just hit me out of nowhere. Usually I feel it coming or know theres something I need to get out but this cry was different. Its been boiling up for weeks and weeks. Usually I cry from frustration, anger or sadness of missing him. …
Homeowners NO MORE!!!
I'm a few weeks late on this but... WE SOLD THE HOUSE!!! Awww man, what a weight off my shoulders. The process was a lot tougher emotionally than I expected. Saying goodbye to the house was extremely tough. The day that we moved out was when it truly began to sink in that we were …
Anticlimactic
Okay, sooo I'm going to have to step up my risky pic game lol. He ended up not opening that night like I was hoping. Instead he randomly did while we were on the phone together the next day. I was sooo nervous haha. "Ooooh, no pants. Sexy." He said... and then we were on …
Keeping Things Interesting
Its only week one of AIT and already its sooo much better than basic. Mostly because... he has his phone! I forgot what it was like to just be able to text him with a question or random thought. Sometimes its hours before I actually get a response but I don't care. Its amazing to …
This Beautiful Life 