No matter how long he's been gone or how many months its been since he last wore it, theres still just something special about wearing one of his shirts. With him being gone most of last year for training then getting deployed just weeks after that, I am pretty sure I have worn his shirts …
Tag: military relationship
Not As Far Away As It Seems
Its easy to sometimes feel like you are alone while going through this journey. After all, you do so many things alone. Things that you would do with your spouse if they were able to be with you but they aren't. You get stretched in ways you never imagined and responsibilities that were once your …
What “Being Positive” Really Looks Like
I truly have been overwhelmed by all the support and encouragement I have received since my last post. I am so thankful for all those who reached out to me, shared their experiences, offer advice and words of comfort. I was not expecting the responses I received but am so grateful to everyone who took …
One Day At a Time
I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …
When it Rains, it Pours
Have you heard of Murphy's Law? Basically it states "whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I learned about it years ago in grade school, then again in college but never thought much of it. Then last year, as we were preparing for his deployment, I kept hearing the term. I read it on military message boards, …

Bringing In 2018 With a Splash
I have officially been home for one week by myself and what a week its been to say the least. I have had a lot of highs and lows. I was a lot more emotional about coming home than I was expecting to be. It was hard standing at baggage claim and seeing people reunite …
What We Wait For
I was reading through some old journals from several years back and came across this quote. I remember the exact situation I was struggling with when I wrote this quote down. I sat there in aw as I remembered how fearful and doubtful I was that I would make it through that situation. I remembered …
Grateful and Thankful
Tonight as I was sitting in a Christmas Eve church service, I realized just how much I have to be grateful for. I had my husbands family on my left and my family on my right. I was overwhelmed by how special that was. I was literally surrounded by more love and support than I …
A Different and Needed Perspective
With Christmas right around the corner, its been getting tough. Tougher than I was expecting. My plan was to just avoid as much Christmas as I could, act like it wasn't happening and just move on to the new year. Well, that obviously was not possible. Especially since I am home with family. . It …
10 Day Update
Today makes 10 days since we said our goodbye. (Note: He did not leave for his deployment 10 days ago. I left for home then and thats when we said our final goodbyes but I will not say his exact day due to OPSEC.) The goodbye itself was extremely tough but I am so proud …