Finally Getting Closer

And just like that, we are finally in the excitement stage of this deployment. I wish I could share the exact countdown with you but I want to keep him and his unit safe so I will just leave it at that we are close. Not extremely close but close enough to finally use the word …

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It Won’t Always Be Like This

I have been hearing those words in my heart lately. Every time I look over at his empty couch or side of the bed. Every time I eat dinner alone and come home to an empty house. Ever time I go to an event or spend a holiday by myself. Every time I have to …

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When Time Stands Still

I can not tell you how many times I have been told "Your life doesn't need to stop just because your husband is away at training/deployed.". And while that may be true for your career, social and other parts of life, only recently have I discovered that unfortunately its not true for every part of …

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What “Being Positive” Really Looks Like

I truly have been overwhelmed by all the support and encouragement I have received since my last post. I am so thankful for all those who reached out to me, shared their experiences, offer advice and words of comfort. I was not expecting the responses I received but am so grateful to everyone who  took …

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One Day At a Time

I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …

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When it Rains, it Pours

Have you heard of Murphy's Law? Basically it states "whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I learned about it years ago in grade school, then again in college but never thought much of it. Then last year, as we were preparing for his deployment, I kept hearing the term. I read it on military message boards, …

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Bringing In 2018 With a Splash

I have officially been home for one week by myself and what a week its been to say the least. I have had a lot of highs and lows. I was a lot more emotional about coming home than I was expecting to be. It was hard standing at baggage claim and seeing people reunite …

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What We Wait For

I was reading through some old journals from several years back and came across this quote. I remember the exact situation I was struggling with when I wrote this quote down. I sat there in aw as I remembered how fearful and doubtful I was that I would make it through that situation. I remembered …

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Grateful and Thankful

Tonight as I was sitting in a Christmas Eve church service, I realized just how much I have to be grateful for. I had my husbands family on my left and my family on my right. I was overwhelmed by how special that was. I was literally surrounded by more love and support than I …

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