One Day At a Time

I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …

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When it Rains, it Pours

Have you heard of Murphy's Law? Basically it states "whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I learned about it years ago in grade school, then again in college but never thought much of it. Then last year, as we were preparing for his deployment, I kept hearing the term. I read it on military message boards, …

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Bringing In 2018 With a Splash

I have officially been home for one week by myself and what a week its been to say the least. I have had a lot of highs and lows. I was a lot more emotional about coming home than I was expecting to be. It was hard standing at baggage claim and seeing people reunite …

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Why I’m not moving home during deployment

No, I am not moving back home while he is deployed. Although I am sure both our families would prefer I did. I did consider it. We talked about that possibility a lot and he was supportive of me doing either. Ultimately, I came to the decision that me staying at our new duty station …

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Home for the Holidays

Never thought I would say this but it truly is good to be home. I was not planning on coming home. Was just going to prepare for the holidays alone but my family (and his) were having none of that. And now that I am home, I am so grateful that they made it happen. …

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Countdown to Goodbye

Today went so well! I talked him into going to the early church service and on the way there I told him why but didn't give all the details. I just told him I had a surprise planned for noon in town. For the next three hours he guessed and asked questions constantly. Everything from helicopter …

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Hurry Up and Wait

So heres where we are. He got green lighted to be deployed last week. Received all his gear. All paperwork is done. All boxes are checked and yet... he's still here??? Apparently he's leave date got pushed back just a little. Its not by much but we'll take it. Its tough because I am of …

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Screw You, Sincerely The U.S. Army

Andddd that pretty much sums it up. The thing we were dreading most happened today. He received orders to deploy... next week. I still haven't even begun to process it. I can't believe 1) that this is our reality right now. I've heard, seen and known of so many go through this but its so …

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