One Day At a Time

I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …

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When it Rains, it Pours

Have you heard of Murphy's Law? Basically it states "whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I learned about it years ago in grade school, then again in college but never thought much of it. Then last year, as we were preparing for his deployment, I kept hearing the term. I read it on military message boards, …

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Bringing In 2018 With a Splash

I have officially been home for one week by myself and what a week its been to say the least. I have had a lot of highs and lows. I was a lot more emotional about coming home than I was expecting to be. It was hard standing at baggage claim and seeing people reunite …

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What We Wait For

I was reading through some old journals from several years back and came across this quote. I remember the exact situation I was struggling with when I wrote this quote down. I sat there in aw as I remembered how fearful and doubtful I was that I would make it through that situation. I remembered …

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Grateful and Thankful

Tonight as I was sitting in a Christmas Eve church service, I realized just how much I have to be grateful for. I had my husbands family on my left and my family on my right. I was overwhelmed by how special that was. I was literally surrounded by more love and support than I …

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A Different and Needed Perspective

With Christmas right around the corner, its been getting tough. Tougher than I was expecting. My plan was to just avoid as much Christmas as I could, act like it wasn't happening and just move on to the new year. Well, that obviously was not possible. Especially since I am home with family.  . It …

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Why I’m not moving home during deployment

No, I am not moving back home while he is deployed. Although I am sure both our families would prefer I did. I did consider it. We talked about that possibility a lot and he was supportive of me doing either. Ultimately, I came to the decision that me staying at our new duty station …

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Countdown to Goodbye

Today went so well! I talked him into going to the early church service and on the way there I told him why but didn't give all the details. I just told him I had a surprise planned for noon in town. For the next three hours he guessed and asked questions constantly. Everything from helicopter …

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When Christmas Has to Come Early

As you know, my husband received orders to deploy sometime before Christmas. As unfortunate as it is, we are making the best of it and decided to celebrate early (and probably again when he gets back 😏 ). I ordered his Christmas gift the first week of November, way before we knew he would be deploying. …

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