One Day At a Time

I am trying hard to remain "positive" and "upbeat" and to "thrive" through this deployment but the truth is I am struggling and my heart hurts so bad. Everyone says to "stay busy" and I have been but no matter how "busy" you stay, the sting of walking into an empty house just never gets …

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When it Rains, it Pours

Have you heard of Murphy's Law? Basically it states "whatever can go wrong, will go wrong." I learned about it years ago in grade school, then again in college but never thought much of it. Then last year, as we were preparing for his deployment, I kept hearing the term. I read it on military message boards, …

Bringing In 2018 With a Splash

I have officially been home for one week by myself and what a week its been to say the least. I have had a lot of highs and lows. I was a lot more emotional about coming home than I was expecting to be. It was hard standing at baggage claim and seeing people reunite …

10 Day Update

Today makes 10 days since we said our goodbye. (Note: He did not leave for his deployment 10 days ago. I left for home then and thats when we said our final goodbyes but I will not say his exact day due to OPSEC.) The goodbye itself was extremely tough but I am so proud …

Home for the Holidays

Never thought I would say this but it truly is good to be home. I was not planning on coming home. Was just going to prepare for the holidays alone but my family (and his) were having none of that. And now that I am home, I am so grateful that they made it happen. …

Screw You, Sincerely The U.S. Army

Andddd that pretty much sums it up. The thing we were dreading most happened today. He received orders to deploy... next week. I still haven't even begun to process it. I can't believe 1) that this is our reality right now. I've heard, seen and known of so many go through this but its so …

Home Sweet Home

Today makes two weeks since we first stepped foot in Texas. It took us three days to get here but we could have made it in two if we needed to. I'm glad that we did take out time though and just enjoyed the trip. It honestly was like a mini vacation. Just time together, …

Just as I Remembered

Okay, let me start off by saying I totally overthought things. Yes, I've changed and so has he but we still click just like we did before he left. Of course we are learning each other and getting use to having one another always around but its not like I was worrying about. He did …

Final 24

I can hardly believe its here. Going through these last 7 months, it felt like this day would never arrive. This journey felt endless. I have cried so many tears and spent too many nights alone. There have been so many days that I did not think I would make it and so many situations …

Just So Done

I cried tonight for the first time in months. And it just hit me out of nowhere. Usually I feel it coming or know theres something I need to get out but this cry was different. Its been boiling up for weeks and weeks. Usually I cry from frustration, anger or sadness of missing him. …