I did it. I went for it, accepted the new job, put my two week notice in at Golds Gym and begin working at the bank next month!
The fear is still there. I’m terrified! I’m not sure that this new job will be the perfect fit for me. I have no idea if I will love it or hate it. I don’t know if I will struggle or excel at it. The truth is, there are a lot of unknowns with it but I have decided to take the leap. I do not want to live the rest of my life wondering “what if”. “What if that was the perfect job/career for me?”, “What if that was the opportunity I had been praying for?”, “What if I had just gone for it?”, “What if I hadn’t let fear hold me back?”. I don’t want to look back 5 years from now and think “That could have been an opportunity of a life time but I was too afraid.” Instead, in 5 years I want to tell how fear tried to cheat me out of the best thing in life, and I didn’t let it.
I also have decided to take all the pressure off. Sure I would love for this to be my “forever job/career” and if it is, great! But if it isn’t, then that is okay too. At least I will know and will move on to the next opportunity.
You may be wondering what this picture has to do with this post. When I think back on my life, there are just a handful of times that I felt absolutely fearless. This picture is of one of those moments. I risked it all, with no idea what was ahead and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I was on a summer missions trip in Uganda Africa. Me and 9 others were traveling from one remote village to another one to reach this small tribe that few had ventured far enough to meet. Crossing this “bridge” was the only way to reach them.
We had no idea how the tribe would receive us or the message of Christ but forward we went. After hours of hiking, we finally reached the village and were greeted with some hesitation from the tribe. We broke up into small groups. Some playing with the children, others went out the the fields to help while others helped prepare food. None of us had any idea how the our time there would play out. But God moved and allowed us to not only share but bring many of them to Him.
I am so grateful that we did not let fear or anything else keep us from reaching that tribe. And I am grateful that I will not be letting fear hold me back from this new opportunity. When I look at this picture, I see a brave, courageous and fearless girl whose trust is fully in God. Her worries are far, her heart is light and her smile is big. I want to be her again. I will be her… I am her ❤️.
“In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make.”